blahblah.
im feeling darn pissed ; irritated ; not good at all !
this feeling sucks !
oh wth.
damn it !
FINAL DECISION -
i dint go and watch the lianhezaobao competition.
ohwells.
i dont knw why too.
one thing was cos it seems noone wna go so i decided not to go also.
another thing was cos im not sure if the person i wna watch in play would win or not.
i knw, i should erm, be more confident and support tht person ?
haha.
but nahh, dont wna risk ?
erm.
okay, i dont exactly knw wth am i saying..
ohwells.
but the bottom line is tht im not feeling GOOD right now, this very instance !
darn it !
i should have gone to watch but i dint.
i got to wait for three months or more to watch another competition in play.
ghee.
three months aint this long or tht short.
oh wtf.
this sucks, sucks loads.
it seems tht i cant ...
ohwells.
i dont knw how to phrase it and i've also erm, forgotten wht i wna say lah.
haha.
whtever.
anyhow, i only and super clear tht im fucking not shuang lah.
why ?
i dont knw and wna knw too.
blahblah.
okay, after some reshuffling of my thoughts, i knw wht to say already.
it simply seems tht im too EASILY affected by wht others say.
simply TOO and DARN and DAMNED easily affected.
ohwells.
again, this sucks.
ergh.
fucking pissed abt it but simply cant chill abt it.
how nice indeed.
damned !
why why WHY cant i just take tht nothing has been said or nothing has happened ?
oh shit.
i really dont knw why.
argh.
it is so shit, really.
i just wish i can take tht nothing of those shit has taken place and everything is back to normal.
normal ?
wht do i mean by normal ?
i mean, to not have some shitholed ppl's tongues wagging here and there when it's totally not the truth !
fuck it !
im still pissed and fucking unhappy !
totally shit.
thinking of my oh-so-nice life and all.
dont have a clue why my thoughts would mingle till these shit.
seriously, i dont a single bit !
whoever who somehow gets wht im saying or rather, bullshitting here, please, by all means, enlighten me then !
but nahh, i doubt anyone gets wtf am i saying so just ignore this post.
ohwells.
shall fuck off from here.
till then, goodbye !
i munched ;
at 12:51 PM